TAN LITING

2012-02-24T11:09:00.002+08:00

this lovely cousin of mine. ;)
cant explain how much i love this 2 person.
for letting my annoy them for 18 years. hahhaha

2012-01-13T11:04:00.001+08:00

Optimism dun die on me.
My body feels so weird. Like I'm falling sick soon. Gosh. I should fall sick before I return my mediguard card.
The worst Friday 13. 2012.
Nothing went right for me ever since it strikes 12. Even a few mins before that. :/
I shouldn't let anyone affect me. And that's definitely just a small thing. Why am I making a huge fuss over it. Siao.

Anyway. I shall go get my maxi dress tmr if my mum's working. And my important 'waddup' 财神爷. Hopefully there's stock.
Go Charles and Keith and get the sandals. On mon?
Do my hair.
Go SPCA help my sis get smth.
And I need to plan activities for after CNY.
<3

2012-01-13T00:44:00.001+08:00

Day out with the girls.
Shopping and we got so little things with our purpose for CNY shopping. Hahah.

Guess I'm gg to have my period soon. Mood swing like free. Easily pissed.
And I had a really bad ending to my day.

2012-01-04T00:53:00.001+08:00

2012!!
So far so good. Hah!! Pls remain this way!!
Counting down, clearing my leaves.
And. I'm gg to start a new life in feb.
Starting to feel 舍不得 alr. :/
But well. I'm leaving for the better. ;)

Get things done.

2011-12-17T03:21:00.003+08:00

1) book for trip ASAP
2) get next year planner from SPCA ASAP
3) resignation letter submit on 18/12
4) register for school by 27/12
5) spam send resume

USS

2011-12-15T01:52:00.001+08:00

Went USS ytd and spent all my money. Sian!!
Maybe it's worth it. Cos it's kind of a date after so long for the both of us.
Being so busy with our own things.
Having no time for each other.
Had some silent wars and I really dislike them. But well.. I spend money. So I did some 'retail therapy' uh. :/
Love life hiccups. Everything shall get back on track soon.

Cos i had a bad day

2011-12-09T10:33:00.001+08:00

I had never felt so unappreciated for such a long time alr. Having to give so much thoughts to others about how they feel. How much work they have to do. How much I can help them. At the end of the day. I should stop wasting my time. Because no one will ever slow down to look at if ure ok. No one will help u when u need help. I really have thought of helping them during cny period but please understand. My 2 years with them. Which cny I didn't work. Now wat? Thinking that I'm childish cos I wan to resign due to having to work during cny? Hello??!! There's so many Pinoy and Malays. They can't work for cny meh? Why talk to me like I owe u a living? I want to leave there's a few reasons. And cny is definitely the minor one alr. It's impossible for me to continue staying cos ultimately I still need to go for accounting jobs. Secondly. I fun have much friends there and wat makes me feeling so happy to go to work? NTH! -bias, different treatment according to personal preference. And which line shows tat pt have to work at least one weekend per week. Which also shows me that. I'm the only pt in the store. Tell me. How to be happy working there. U dun vent it anger on us when the walk in crowd is so pathetic and u're expecting the sales to be good. That's not my fault if they bring limited amount in to spend or they are not willing to spend so much. These years how many new items are ther. Ppl are sick of the designs. Tats definitely not my fault. I got so much unhappy things to say. But who can I tell them to? Those who wants to help me are so close with them. I appreciate them and I love them. But I dun wan to make things difficult for them. That's not even their problem. 　I just wan to end this shit ASAP.

2011-11-23T14:00:00.001+08:00

Rooster Characteristics:

Element: Metal

Direction: West

Color: Violet

Polarity: Yin

Gemstone: Citrine

Lucky Number: 6

Sign Order: Tenth

Season: Autumn

Month: September

Allies: Ox, Snake

Foes: Rabbit

Western Counterpart: Virgo

Much-misunderstood Rooster is the tenth sign of the Chinese Zodiac. These people are complex. They appear very attractive and sure of themselves. Some are the strong, mysterious and silent types. Some are aggressively chatty. They can win you with charm or be your worst nightmare. Roosters leave little middle ground.

Roosters approach life is expansive. They have high hopes and a strong desire for success. They are willing to put in the hours and do the work that builds success in any area.

Under all that bluster is a very traditional person. They are good-hearted and mean only the best for others. Roosters are excellent workers and do amazing things with limited resources.

Rooster people believe they are always right. They believe it so strongly that they are convinced they must bring all others to their point of view. This can become tiresome in the extreme. Roosters love a good argument. They are blunt, honest, and will not worry about being diplomatic. Roosters need the energy they generate from debate.

If you want to be friends with a Rooster, you need to dive right in. Be prepared not the take things personally. This is someone who hates admitting they are wrong.

Positives:

Perfectionist, resilient, courageous, passionate, protective, responsible, industrious.

Negatives:

Opinionated, blunt, conceited, rude, impatient, aggressive, bossy

2011-11-14T01:40:00.002+08:00

looking at the archives to realize how time really flies.

the one and only thing i miss so bad about my life is the studio.

:/ i really miss social dancing and spinnings.

dancing 9 hours per week.

ballet yoga hiphop salsa.

i miss all of them.

when can i be back to enjoy wat i like?

and i totally expected these coming except for one.

well, i choose to not see wat i'm seeing.

for so long. but i still have to and i have to accept them.

hao bei! jiu de bu qu xin de bu lai.

2011-11-12T01:38:00.001+08:00

k. now i feel like an idiot.

trying to not interfere but still, found its way to me.

and great.

they got wat they wanted.

and yay, i'm out.

2011-11-04T03:08:00.000+08:00

flaw-full face!!

2011-09-20T16:16:00.003+08:00

so quiet recently without meiling and dom in sg.

but when they come back its my turn to fly with my work mates and sw,zeena

and this boy is addicted to shopping..

BAD OMEN!

we both will be broke damn soon.

PARTY IN THE PARK!!

punk was our theme and we did attracted attention as a whole group. :/

hope we will win. :)and thanks to jamil for braiding out hair so nice,

spending so much time and money help us do up our hair and make up.

i really love the end product of braiding and after taking out.

my hair will look bombastic and curly.

I OFFICIALLY HATE MY FLAT HAIR! :D i feel like bringing lappy to tw to tranfser photos.

and i miss my lappy so much.

the charger was destroyed by rocky.

after repairing and use for a week,

its dead!! :(

its worse than having a spoilt battery.

cos i totally cant use it now. :'(

i wan to leave sg asap..

2011-09-14T23:40:00.001+08:00

seriously, i hate this feeling so much.
why do i feel like everyone is offending me.
damn. -.-

2011-09-10T02:43:00.000+08:00

S.O.L.O

#foreveralone

2011-08-12T01:39:00.004+08:00

life's screwed at this point of time.

everyone doesn't like me and my siblings dun come home.

I think tats life

2011-06-13T23:08:00.002+08:00

I realized how the world works now.
In ur life. Ppl come to u when u provide benefits to them. If not. Ure out of their life.
When working. Ppl dun care about u. Cos they are nt paid to do so. No matter how u struggle. They would just stand and watch.
So stop believing in team work. Cos ppl are selfish. They will not help u get wat u wan to achieve. They do it only for themselves.
In these 18 years. I could count with a single hand the ppl who really care and would treat me as part of their life.

2011-06-09T01:14:00.001+08:00

i got slim face!! YAY!!

i didn't gain fats. *hopefully*

but i feel them. argh...

cut down on food pls tlt.

and exercise more!!

2011-06-03T00:14:00.001+08:00

why guys always get wat they wan?

wtf! its so unfair.

why am i the one always putting in all the effort and getting nth back in return.

fml!

Actually

2011-05-09T02:21:00.001+08:00

Awaiting for my Facebook status to change to single. It's a matter of time now.

there goes my 18.

2011-04-20T00:39:00.000+08:00

i think its time to think about wat i really wan in life..

shall think about it seriously

The worse part ever

2011-04-17T01:24:00.001+08:00

I think I'm totally a joke in ur life for 2.5 years. Letting u fool around and feeling down all by myself. U won't even know if I'm unhappy, for whatever reason. Just recently for the cruise thing and now. My bday. If u think the present is alr with me den tat's it. Den forget about the relationship. I dun even wan the present den. If u apologize and tell me u can't help me celebrate den give me an alternative to choose. I won't be pissed at least not until ignoring u. Maybe Tony romas is just ur random plan to scam him. Or maybe for other girls. And I'm stupid enough to actually believe my eyes. Or maybe too naive to think it was for me. But the truth is U DUN EVEN RMB ANYTHING!!!
FFUUCCKK MMYY LLIIFFEE!!!!
And stop telling me how much u love me because all these actions shows otherwise. I dun believe on u anymore.
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只能羡慕

2011-04-10T01:25:00.001+08:00

I really envy those who are so sure about their future. What they wan to do. What is their plan. And working towards it. And even who they can rely on for their future.  why am I nth similar?

2011-03-08T11:24:00.002+08:00

woke up super late and decided.

no school for me.

this is like the dunno how many times i've skipped school this sem.

i need to stop thisby sleeping real early.

but i think i'm using my time relatively well.

by cracking my brains about wat i really want.

and working towards it.

hopefully, my decisison is right. ;D

2011-02-26T15:37:00.002+08:00

i've did smth so wrong.

one after another.

and i dun think i should just live with it.

but i dunno what else i can do.

poker face kill me instant.

>:/

well, i think i should give it a try.

it wont kill. hopefully

2011-02-16T14:53:00.000+08:00

as expected/ :D

CNY SUCKS

2011-02-03T10:58:00.003+08:00

it all started ytd night.

with my make no sense ***

scolded me w/o making any sense.

another thing - i woke up late and my grandma scold me.

saying if i dun wan to go dun let them wait.

den fine. i dun go la.

its like the first day of CNY and i got all this shit.

& i cried like a dog.

firstly cos i dun think i've done anything wrong to get this kind of shit.

secondly, i wont be able to wear all the nice clothings and heels i've bought.

spending so much time and money searching for them.

if i knew this would happen i might as well save up all my money.

its like a few hundreds. alot leh.

tat explain why i'm home now blogging.

and i wont be able to recover the $$ cos i'm going to work and not getting ang paos :/

FML for CNY and maybe the rest of the year.

2011-02-03T00:59:00.001+08:00

CNY! will be back and blog abt how i spend my CNY this year.

2011-01-05T21:40:00.002+08:00

i want to be there, gracefully.

this year, i'm starting it well.

i'm gonna let 2011 be nice to me. ;)

i'm currently planning for a new dance school.

cos i will be very embarrassed to go back after troubling them for so many things.

and i found another place with cheaper rates and flexible timing for i'm not taking the course thingy which made me a crazy woman last year.

so I've made up my mind to stop being crazy and throwing myself to struggle like an idiot.

school's so far so good.

results will be out in the last week of feb i guess.

I've been enjoying the past 2 classes.

except for being late half an hour every class. :/

glad tat i have leong with me. ;)

hope we will get our asses out of the 'hell' real soon.

tat's wat we are pursuing tgt hardly, trying our best. hahah

dom.

we haven met this year. :(

but all the best for ur school and competition. ;)

love u lots.

2010-12-29T19:57:00.002+08:00

SCREWED!!!

I HATE TAT SCHOOL IS REOPENING.

AND TAT I HAVENT PAY FOR MY SCHOOL FEES.

THE SUBSCRIPTION FEE WHICH WILL ALLOW ME TO SIT FOR MY EXAMS IN JUNE.

MY MUM SCOLD ME WHEN I FORGO THE 20% DISCOUNT FOR MY SCHOOL FEES.

SHE JUST DIDNT HEAR TAT MY DAD JUST SPENT A SUM OF MONEY TO REPAIR HIS DARLING.

IF U NEVER KEEP REMINDING ME TAT U'RE BROKE.

I WILL FORCE U DOWN TO MAKE PAYMENT.

I HATE TAT I HAVE TO WORK TO SUPPORT MYSELF.

AND TAT MY PARENTS DOESNT REALLY SHOW SUPPORT IN ME!

I HATE TAT I HAVE GOT A BOYFRIEND WHO ALWAYS LEAVE ME LAST.

AND NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL AS A GIRL AFTER SO LONG.

I HATE TAT NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME WELL.

I HATE TAT I HAVE TO KEEP EVERYTHING TO MYSELF.

I HATE TAT I'M NOT RICH.

I HATE TAT I JUST CANT LIVE MY OWN LIFE AND I DUN HAVE TO CARE FOR OTHERS.

BE AS STUBBORN AS I WAN.

BUT I'M NOT JUST BORN TAT WAY.

FUCK. MY. LIFE!

2010-12-27T20:50:00.002+08:00

RESOLUTIONS FOR 2011!!

get organized!
spend more time with my family. ;)
arrange more outings with my friends.
shop lesser : so i can get camera and watever i wan.
complete my CAT asap.
get a nice job near my house.
eat lesser. DIET DIET DIET!
no mc & late for work.
no debts.
and live the happiest life ever! :D

i will add on when i think of some more.

fever was so unbearable. so i slept for at least 20 hrs last nite.

and congrats its out shopping for 16 hrs. and its back home to me again.

cant it just stop pestering me?

i'm so looking forward to work now.

cos i'm bored enough.

i'm working tmr.

i wan to work so pretty please leave me alone.

thankuverymuchiie.

2010-12-25T00:26:00.003+08:00

how can i tell the person i dun like them?

i dun like to keep things to myself but just no one to tell.

sometimes i just wish i can talk to u like normally how we used to.

everything and dun even have to think wat if u tell the person.

its like in the first place. u might not know them,

or even if u do.

i treat u like my best friend and trust took over my mind.

i guess i'm afraid to trust u as much as before.

just look at both of us now.

its kind of obvious.

they have already taken over.

they got everything we dont.

and just fuck them for being arrogant.

tsk tsk tsk~

where are all my friends?

this is the worse Christmas.

WORST!!!

I'M SORRY BUT I HATE CHRISTMAS MOST!!!

MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE.

EVERYTHING WOULD JUST GO HAYWIRE AND FUCK THE EMOTIONS.

FALSE SMILE AND BEING NICE.

i shall not be nice and keep thinking for others.

i shall start living in my own world and fuck care the others like how they do.

ftw

2010-12-23T04:02:00.002+08:00

pay on 28th December.

pay for dance $240
buy tat lovely studded boots $27.50

and congrats its gone!

2010-12-13T02:31:00.001+08:00

MORE OUTING PLEASE!!!

hope i wake up on time for exercise. :)

excited to go on diet!!!

woohoo~

i feel the fats being excited to be burn too!! :D

2010-12-04T00:29:00.003+08:00

i'm leaving this huge studio, i swear i'll be back asap!!

cos i will miss the scolding for my spins.

and all the instructors there. :(

i can never imagine.

i'm actually happier when i'm working now.

just started to love the ppl there so much.

at least most of them are true.

yea, and i think i got no true friends eh.

not abt emo stuff but some bitch just act as though she's never emo.

and dare to post it up on the web where she always say abt emo stuffs. -.-

2010-11-30T01:31:00.002+08:00

if Santa could make wishes come, my wish this year would be asking him to stay with me.

fucking life.

i dunno which should i put first.

its a fucking idiotic thing, $$

_l_ _l_

how i wish i could consult someone.

telling me wat should i do.

i dun like doing things halfway.

but studies i can never give it up.

HELLO! THIS IS SINGAPORE.

CANT LIVE W/O CERT.

*ROLL EYES!*

FUCK!!

I NEED SPONSORSHIP.

HOW I WISH LIKE I THINK.

WHEN I GROW UP NATURALLY I'LL BE RICH.

FUCKING NBCB.

EVERYTHING IS NEVER ENOUGH.

WAT SHOULD I DO MAN!!!!

2010-11-22T02:54:00.001+08:00

it would be fantastic if i could meet up with all my cousins like today every week.

miss them!

they're so nice and cute!!!

shall go my grandma house regularly. ;)

2010-11-16T11:21:00.003+08:00

tell me all this pays off at the end of my life.

dancing schooling working and - lots of outing with friends.

finally i slept well ytd after all the dancing and 0 lappy.

supposed to go SPCA today with lml.

but she's sleeping now. :(

my retribution.

cos i ps-ed here twice in a week.

SORRY.

SHALL I GO SPCA ALONE?

I MISS THOSE DOGGIES. :(

i feel so out of the group. i might be busy. but u never even inform. Wat does tat mean? if u dun even wan me to go in the first place den dun even ask. if tat's the case i will step out and be on my own.

uncle George told me this ytd.

woman are actually made to be happy.

den i think to myself. am i too manly??

2010-11-14T16:50:00.002+08:00

i miss u. hope u can stop doing ur work. :(

but u cant

I WAN GO SPCA ALTHOUGH THERE WONT BE SUCH CUTIE DOWN

BUT THEY ARE ALL AS SPECIAL TO THIS. :D

ANYONE ??

2010-11-09T02:52:00.002+08:00

WAT SHOULD I DO DURING MY HOLIDAYS?

lunch /dinner with eileen jessie and michelle on 20Nov
i will not have holiday for working and dancing. so it will go on as normal.

the rest. help me fill up.. i dun wan to die of boredom.

LEEMEILING LEONGSEOWWEI CHENWENYI JOEYLIM SARAHCHU GLENDALOW

SHALL GO WITH ME TO..

WHERE EVER I WAN TO GO!!!

HAHAAHAHHAH

2010-10-26T02:20:00.002+08:00

i guess this will be my only time.
BIG THANKS TO THOSE WHO HELPED ME ALONG THE WAY BY ANY MEANS.

MY FAMILY.
my grandma for taking care of me since young and dote on me most. :D
my parents for providing me watever i need. and push me go to grow beyond.
my dajie for being so understanding and willng to share.
my erjie for telling me all the da dao lisss, telling me wat will be better.
my brother for all the bullyings and entertainment which he always provide to lift up the atmosphere.

FRIENDS.
meiling - the 1 who would stay out till the next morning with me when i dun feel like going home. ;)
seowwei - nicest friend i can find
wenyi - the slackest i've ever seen. :D
joey - the 1 who will laugh with me till we cry.
sarah - sports crazy. and DANCE!
glenda - hiao char bor. hahah
zeena - the air con

DOMDOM - the weird 1 who i actually dun see him making a huge impact in my life.but he prove me totally wrong.

every single 1 of them taught me different things.
and i love them all equally.
although i might spend more time with some.
i really hope none of them leave..

i wan to start treasuring everyone tat god has assigned me to.

i wan to live my life to the fullest.
making impact to ppl's life.
so when i die. nobody's gonna cry.
but laugh cos i lived a fruitful life.
- inspired by miss cindy lee, when i was p6.
hopefully i'm working towards it. :)

2010-10-20T23:45:00.001+08:00

i feel out of ***** again.
well, doesnt matters.
i got leong seow wei! :D

2010-10-17T01:44:00.002+08:00

KL TRIP!!! :D

mini bus down to T1 to check in
plane off.
i think it went too fast or smth which cos me and my sis to have headache. :(

KLCC
my dad keep trying to locate the twin tower but. fail...

PASAR MALAM!~
fruitful?
bought presents for them.
nth much for myself there.:(
TIME SQUARE - BEST!
25rm and i bought like dunno how many.
i like the way i spend. its damn shiok.

CHOW KIT for wholesale.
its super ultra cheap there cos its wholesale.
but its super scary cos there's very very little chinese there.
all malays and they really look kind of scary.

time square again for more shopping.

ppl there quite weird la.

cos we went to this restaurant with this auntie serving us.

so she's like recommending this chicken dish.

so my dad ordered it.

and she keep coming back to us to check if we're satisfied with it.

this is worse.

we order claypot with this really quite old looking auntie serving us.

she sells drink.

and she cant stop pressurizing us to buy drink from her.

my dad got so pekchek and gl her.

and the claypot seller came to apologise and ask us not to sit there anymore.

the train is another 1.

fucking tall guy with super lousy balancing skill just lean on me throughout the 2 stops train journey.

lucky its just 2,

and the people there uses weird ways to get onto the train.

the police were assigned there just to make sure passengers are able to alight. and those boarding are to scary for them to control tat they have to run away. -.-

ok... its so wordy..

THANKS LEONG SEOW WEI SUPER MUCH FOR THE EXAMS THINGY!!!

I LOVE U SUPER MUCH~~ ;)

2010-10-10T00:36:00.001+08:00

i shall look out for sw's bag,

cosmetics, clothes, shoes and more things i might find in kl..

;)

but i need to face hell first.

nites.

2010-10-07T00:12:00.003+08:00

this look so cute! i wan!!

developed the photos.

look ok for a first timer lomography.

well, kind of made my sis like lomo also.

i wan do collection of lomossss.

god please send some $$ down to me.

2010-09-27T01:40:00.002+08:00

finally back to work.

feel so much better than staying at home all day.

new people again.

1 entertaining 1.

damn funny. but they will be leaving in 1 -2 mths time.

someone wants to leave.

bring me along please.

although i may love tat place.

but i have to grow out of it.

i need to start looking for wat really is my playground.

this is too small a playground alr.

I MISS MY FRIENDS!!

AND MY DOMDOM!! :(

2010-09-24T19:25:00.001+08:00

the soar throat make me feel the pain in the ear. :/
i wan go work.
miss working.

2010-09-20T15:56:00.001+08:00

super angry.
its almost 4. dun even have the mood to go for dance.
fuck.
i hate u!!!

2010-09-18T03:03:00.001+08:00

u just dun understand at all.

do u?

fml

2010-09-17T01:33:00.002+08:00

love this to the max.

i'll love the person who will buy me this exact colour chow chow.

dom's back.

:D presents as well.

cant wait for october to come.

1 oct going out with the girls.

13 oct KL trip.

30 oct family outing to the zoo.

cos my bro will be going in for free.

got my hair black again.

feel younger. aww..

i wan saturday.

its going to be my first bbq in malaysia. :D

2010-09-14T00:21:00.002+08:00

their family stop growing. :(

he's leaving tmr.

so i'll have no 1 to talk to for 3 days. :/

i wan to improve my dance so badly.

when my bottle pop

shake me

i'm going to master it w/o copying.

2010-09-12T02:16:00.000+08:00

:D random.

internet got problem again.

need help. :/

idiot lappy.

2010-09-09T01:17:00.002+08:00

the after effect of uploading the photo is.

just too scary.

for the past few days, we've been hearing lizard 'talking' in my room.

ytd it came out to say hi to me.

i scream for my brother to kill it.

after chasing around the room, it manage to run away. :/

i cant sleep in peace ytd.

just now my sis say this thing and was wondering wat is tat.

i joke and say maybe its the lizard's tail.

we called my aunt in and she verified it to be the lizard's tail.

wat's even worse. she found another 1.

immediately i feel so uncomfortable.

so we escaped to the study room for tonight. :'(

i miss my bolster.

2010-09-01T23:00:00.000+08:00

nowhere to speak out my mind.

shit shit shit shit.

emo ttm

2010-08-30T13:02:00.002+08:00

so small. :/

i think xiao xiao bing love marty. haha.

merry go round with marty and marty lanyard.

not going for salsa later.

got to go meet dom and family for dinner. :)

i'm tired.

shall nap and go for dance later. :D

2010-08-25T23:17:00.000+08:00

i'm afraid now...

June 2010 session ACCA Qualification pass rates:

Paper F1, Accountant in Business, 64%*
Paper F2, Management Accounting, 54%*
Paper F3, Financial Accounting, 60%*
Paper F4, Corporate and Business Law, 51%
Paper F5, Performance Management, 57%
Paper F6, Taxation, 46%
Paper F7, Financial Reporting, 28%
Paper F8, Audit and Assurance, 36%
Paper F9, Financial Management, 43%
Paper P1, Professional Accountant, 53%
Paper P2, Corporate Reporting, 47%
Paper P3, Business Analysis, 51%
Paper P4, Advanced Financial Management, 34%
Paper P5, Advanced Performance Management, 44%
Paper P6, Advanced Taxation, 35%
Paper P7, Advanced Audit and Assurance, 32%

June 2010 session CAT pass rates:

Paper 1, Recording Financial Transactions, 63%*
Paper 2, Information and Management Control, 63%*
Paper 3, Maintaining Financial Records, 66%*
Paper 4, Accounting for Costs, 59%*
Paper 5, Managing People and Systems, 38%
Paper 6, Drafting Financial Statements, 79%
Paper 7, Planning, Control and Performance Management, 30%
Paper 8, Implementing Audit Procedures, 28%
Paper 9, Preparing Taxation Computations, 62%
Paper 10, Managing Finances, 61%

2010-08-24T23:30:00.002+08:00

travelling to and fro to pioneer.

high transport expense. :/

anyway, they are doing some maintenance thing to the toilets.

so i got the chance to 'visit' after so long.

very unhappy with the smell and how they leave their things.

so i left a note with my dad approval to ask them remove the cardboards, newspapers and fans.

the next day.

the store room is so neat and tidy.

unfortunately, the living room is still smelly and untidy.

so i didnt remove the note from the door. :P

i wrote it in chinese btw. shall snap a pic of it tmr if i still got time. hahah

i miss staying there during the weekends.

cos we will sure have supper and mac for breakfast. :D

I'M A VERY NASTY LITTLE OWNER OF THE FLAT.

HAHAHA

2010-08-18T01:25:00.002+08:00

life's good. :D

tired tired.

plus next week, i wont be going tkd for 3 weeks.

for the sake of this sat. and it will finally be over.

today got the feel to dance.

feel so good after dancing.

:DD

i still prefer ballet after all.

tried salsa inter cos they got not enough girls.

and i think tat's the fun part.

MASTER MY BASICS TO SHOW THEM I CAN GO INTER.

and my splits. i'm still far far away.

met up with joey for dinner.

super duper full but i still went on for supper with my sis and her bf.

-.-

tmr's gonna be a super ultra long day.

T.T

bless me. :)

theory please leave me alone.

go away paper 5, but not shermeen tan. ;D

2010-08-09T01:16:00.003+08:00

i feel so out. so out.

hopefully tmr will be better. :)

if he can wear this cap all day long and ppl wont give the wth look. :D

29hrs with Dom. :D

maybe tat's why i feel so weird and friendless. ha-ha

i dun feel like sleeping but i should be tired.

so i shall go sleep now and meet them @ 11 tmr for breakfast. :D

2010-08-05T01:32:00.000+08:00

bored. tired. dirty. smelly.

2010-07-30T00:30:00.000+08:00

he dun deserve anything. fucker

2010-07-28T00:02:00.004+08:00

tat was before school. tat's why i can still smile.

i got pushed and i couldnt stand up by myself.

anyone, help?

i went home after school today to get my dance stuffs,

my mum was cooking and we were chatting and somehow got to the topic of my phone.

it got cut as my parents haven't been paying the bills cos my brother used his phone like its free.

and its bloody 4 digits.

wat's even better?

he got another line while i dun.

so i have to get myself a prepaid card in order to contact my friends.

back to wat i was saying.

my mum sort of hint me to stop dancing

and pay off the bill using my dance course fee for a few months.

= no more dancing for the next few months.

my blood boils and i stop talking to her and left for my class.

during the classes.

i was thinking about it. throughout.

i couldn't concentrate.

and i come to conclude.

i will not pay for the bill.

firstly, cos my bill didn't burst.

secondly, my brother is living like not his problem.

and ask my dad to give him an iPhone 4.

WTH

thirdly, since young i was not given the opportunity to dance like i wan.

and now i'm paying for my classes.

i dun see why i should stop for tat bill.

as i'm not the cause of the 4 digits bill.

another fan nao.

as i've converted to part time and i need to fulfill 22hrs.

my schedule is damn packed.

i was notified just now tat i need to turn up for make up and modelling class on Fri and sat.

i'm definitely happy tat i can learn how to make up and model.

but tat would also means tat i need to change my working schedule and i will be unable to go for tkd.

and sacrifice my Sunday to work.

financial problem is pressing on me real hard.

and my boyfriend cant even help me by listening to me.

i'm crying all alone and realize there's no one for me

2010-07-27T03:02:00.001+08:00

plan :

wake up at 10 practice salsa.

1 leave house for school.

den dance.

and home to rest.

2010-07-24T01:35:00.000+08:00

i think i should just go my grandma house and forget all about celebration.

2010-07-23T03:08:00.002+08:00

I NEED TO SLEEP COS I'M WORKING TMR.

but i dunno wat time

have been telling myself to do my work since i left actfa.

but till now i haven touch them. :(

i just hope i got more time and $$

i wan to get a better paying job.

although i think this is the only job tat will go with my schedule best.

but i'm struggling real hard with my finance. :(

how can i make things better?

I GOT SCHOOL AND DANCE.

NEITHER OF IT I WILL QUIT.

HELP!!!

2010-07-21T02:28:00.000+08:00

i got a boyfriend who dun love me and den care about me.

2010-07-19T15:14:00.002+08:00

fuck la. i'm damn angry and sad.

fuck fuck fuck fuck.

and u dun give a damn.

i dun feel like seeing u , talking to u. even planning to meet u .

6 more days but i'm totally not looking forward.

cos i doubt u do.

i think i should just stop caring so much.

i should just go on with my very tight schedule and not make time for u.

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DUN FEEL LIKE LOGGING ON TO FACEBOOK EVER AGAIN!

2010-07-19T14:57:00.003+08:00

thanks for affecting me so much.

i rather we not meet and nothing to quarrel about.

i HATE U

thanks for lying to me making me sad and u think its funny.

i really hate u.

hate u cos of the way u talk is like putting all the blame on me.

and u can tell me u are not blaming me.

thanks

i just wan to thank u so much for all these things.

although its my fault at first.

so SORRY!

I DUN FEEL LIKE MEETING U ON SUNDAY ALR.

even if i'm laughing, it doesnt mean tat i'm happy

2010-07-17T01:32:00.001+08:00

gonna try my best to save up $$ to go UO!

must be 21 to book in. :(

should i sleep?

i have to wake up damn early tmr. :/

2010-07-14T00:49:00.001+08:00

SFDF is getting better as in i'm able to blend in more than the first week. :D

2 more weeks and i'm going to change my schedule. :)

hopefully more fun and my splits. :(

2010-07-12T01:09:00.003+08:00

GONNA HAVE A BUSY WEEK AHEAD!!

168 HRS analysis.

Dance 9.5 HRS
Work 32 HRS
Torch relay 4 HRS??
Sleep 56 HRS [hopefully]
Travelling 10.5 HRS
Eat 17.5 HRS
38.5 HRS left to Daydream.

not going tkd for the week cos torch relay delayed my timing for work. till 930 pm. tkd alr ended.

note to self

inform may abt 25 July taking off day.
bring ballet slippers for isolation class.
dun spend $ cos its for SFDF
pack room and move back asap.
try sleep before 12, cos i'm alr like a panda.
be home asap.
ENJOY THE WEEK! :D

2010-07-11T03:28:00.000+08:00

freak. i'm damn pissed! fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

2010-07-10T01:37:00.002+08:00

even crying when no one can see doesnt make me feel any better.

_l_

i wonder if any other parents will cos of the show and not pick their child up after midnight when they are also on their way back home?

i wonder if any other parents will side their another child when they know they are at fault?

i wonder if any parents would be so gl to their child knowing tat they are alr dying of super packed schedules?

i just wonder if i'm really their child.

the other day, after my work, i was only 1 tat have to walk to casino and take the shutter bus.

i called my sis and she missed call me earlier on.

she was with my parents on their way home from bishan.

they were rushing cos my parents will always be back home on time to watch the show.

i asked them excitedly if they would like to pick me up.

i purposely exaggerate the timing of the bus hoping they would come and fetch me.

unfortunately, i heard from the back tat my dad doesnt wan to fetch me.

trying to cover it up by saying by the time they reach the bus will leave also.

so asked me to take the night transport.

wat makes the whole scenario worse was tat i was damn hungry.

and the uncle doesnt wan to send me back first when he will pass by my house.

later on gl me. F

i reached home and found out tat my siblings were making cup noodles without the courtesy to call and ask if i wan.

my blood were boiling like over 100"C

i had a long bath and out to cook my maggie.

i only see my mum after 1230 when her show ends.

she helped me cook my maggie but i'm still very angry.

today.

i reached home throw my bag on the spot where scooby pee-d w/o noticing.

and he poo-ed on my blanket.

i told my mum when she reached home.

guess wat?

she say cos my room was too messy.

and expect me to pack my room tmr before i leave house. ARGH!!!

as if it was my fault for that ill-disciplined act cute dog to do his business there.

why is it always my responsiblity after everything?

back to my emo seasons, this time round, i'm not showing.

my job is to smile no matter wat.

i can do it. :)

i wan dom so much! he will treat me so much better than any of u at home. i wan to leave this place which doesnt at all belongs to me.

2010-07-06T02:24:00.005+08:00

IMISSYOUALOT!!!
I SURVIVED!!

from saturday, after TKD stayed over at chu's slept only around 3+.

woke up at 6 to prepare for grading.

went for grading den brunch with ml at tiong.

shuttle bus to RWS to work from 1 - abt 11.

slept at 1+

woke up at 2 today,

prepare for dance.

ballet

hip hop 2

yoga

hip hop 1

dinner

and salsa.

now i'm almost dying.

worse of all.

i accidentally deleted the wireless thing on my lappy.

now no internet connection.

IMSUCHANIDIOT

gonna bring my lappy to samsung on sat with DOM. :D

gonna meet sw for brunch tmr, sch,

isolation and hip hop again tmr. :)

2010-07-01T11:54:00.002+08:00

back from picking pepper.

tiring.

perspiring like pig.

meeting sw soon for KFC. :D

i'm going to leave now and pay for SFDF in case i spend the $$.

i wan the pic for the wedding!!

well, random but i'm missing my friends but i doubt they do. :/

2010-06-30T23:06:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL TMR!!

SALSA TMR!!!

ULTRA :D

everyone's back to school.

seems like we haven been meeting for awhile. :/

well, met dom just now for my supper, his dinner.

pay's out but no spare for shopping.

gonna miss the GSS for SFDF.

awww~

but i'm gaining more than materials. ;D

gonna wake up early in the morning and walk up to rumah tinggi to fetch pepper home.

meet sw after tat for her to shop for me to window shop.

school.

and walk around town after tat,

report to SFDF for salsa,

maybe meeting dom for dinner and back to salsa.

shall rest well and early.

nites nites. ;)

2010-06-30T00:23:00.002+08:00

TODAY IS A CRAZY DAY!!

when i'm tired, i'll talk nonsense.

well i did alot today till my sis and my cousin ignore me.

its was quite a fun day though.

its like damn long since we gathered tgt as a family.

sadly my dajie didnt come.

the fun part was the talking nonsense part.

i dun make any sense but we just keep laughing.

tat's my contribution to my family.

pics of today will be up soon.

shall not keep any unglams away from the blog.

its a piece of art. :D

2010-06-26T03:20:00.003+08:00

FINALLY SATURDAY IS HERE!!

gonna enjoy my off for a walk out of redhill bm and sentosa.

tkd to move around rather than standing and forcing myself to smile.

play around with friends who are closer with me.

ending my day with a good rest.

BUT STILL HAVE TO FACE THE REALITY THE NEXT DAY!!

ARGH!!!

NEW AIM.

joining SFDF asap.

after my ACCA i wanna try be air stewardess for a few years.

den go back to accounting.

at least i will try. :D

motivated my susie. the sty-lo mama in my store.

currently tat are those i really wan to fulfill de.

HOPEFULLY!!

tmr gonna rest myself mentally!!!

properly.

i wan dance~~

2010-06-22T03:04:00.001+08:00

well i'm watching soccer now.

I ENJOYED BALLET LESSON TODAY!! :D

i wan a barre and music.

so i can practice at home

i just feel like dancing so much now.

2010-06-17T02:30:00.001+08:00

SHALL GO TO SLEEP NOW!!

HUNGRY!!

I NEED $$$

GOD PLEASE SPARE ME $5800.

ULTRA :(

COS I CANT DO SFDF!

2010-06-16T03:06:00.001+08:00

I WAN DANCE I WAN DANCE I WAN DANCE!!!!!!

2010-06-15T01:08:00.003+08:00

$146,300

i wan it blue please. :D

2010-06-15T00:19:00.001+08:00

wishlist forming up! :D

2010-06-12T17:10:00.003+08:00

more wants...

coming up. :D

2010-06-12T01:50:00.001+08:00

how am i going to survive tmr. i got nth to do...

2010-06-11T22:08:00.001+08:00

am i wrong?

i feel damn bad.

i dunno wat to do now.

i dunno wat can i do.

the lost of best friend?

2010-06-10T13:57:00.000+08:00

I WAN!!!

I'M TRYING TO EARN ENOUGH TO HAVE SPARE $$ TO BUY. ;D

2010-06-08T01:19:00.002+08:00

I WAN BAH ZHANG I WAN BAH ZHANG!!!

missed ballet today cos i overslept

cos i stayed out late with leemeiling

and i need to acc my grandma out in the morning.

emo ttm!

my 18 bucks.

nagging from my mother and grandma.

angry angry.

stressed.

i wan to stay out late so i wont see them.

there goes my plan. :D

2010-06-06T00:17:00.002+08:00

wha lao.

i'm gonna su ku here!!!

went tkd for the first time.

like.

all the kids there like so innocent.

thanks to lcy, i dun feel so awkward.

but she was being left alone. with nth to do.

and she went to watch ml dance.

learn 1/2 or maybe 1/3 of the pattern.

went to eat and go home

when i got home as usual scooby was barking.

my mum let it out so i wanted to play with him.

i was still in track pants and i jumped in front of him.

i dunno why but he was so scared tat he pee and bark and run.

GRATS, den i got all the scolding.

wth... keep saying me.

like i know he will like tat.

really dun feel like coming back home lo.

i rather work full shift, dance and tkd whole day till i'm so tired tat i wan o die than staying at home.

i think i should give up pinning some hope on my family.

like seriously.

i think not only family. but tat 2 more person.

i think there's no point hanging on to those friendship with only 1 side contributing.

its kind of tiring and irritating.

2010-06-05T05:19:00.001+08:00

i'm very ultra hungry. gonna find my instant porridge and drink it before going to sleep.

2010-06-02T03:18:00.002+08:00

monthly expenditure.

pay mummy back $200 / mth for lappy

pay phone bill apx. $50

transportation apx. $80

[tkd $50 / 3 mths]

pay SFDF still yet to be confirmed.

:/ how impt $$ is. argh,

very angry.

i need to plan my schedule really well.

AND THE FERRARI PARKED IN THE CAR PARK OF RESORT WORLD IS MY MOTIVATION TO WORK.

HAHA

2010-05-31T18:54:00.002+08:00

if u are asking me why i wan take up SFDF.

the answer is simple.

its my interest that u NEVER HELPED ME WITH.

u asked me what can i gain from that.

SATISFACTORY, ACCOMPLISHMENT.

PERFORMING ON STAGE, TAKING THE SPOTLIGHT.

if u can ask me tat and allow me to ask u just 1 question.

i would ask.

why would u invest in both my sisters and nothing on me.

after 17 years.

u only paid for 1 of my ballet semester.

what else? since i started working i haven't been taking $ from u.

NOW THAT I DUN FEEL LIKE COMING HOME. NOT EVEN LOOKING AT MY DOOR.

FTW

2010-05-30T05:21:00.002+08:00

another 5 mins conversation. :(

well, i think i'm missing u too much..

i need to get myself busier.

my grandma going for morning exercise and i'm just going to sleep soon.

see u world after i wake up.

after tat all i see is ppl in universal studio. ;D

working out my timetable.

2010-05-25T02:22:00.003+08:00

gonna report to work again. :D

kind of excited.

and today ballet class was fun with Angela and Yuki.

yup only 3 person in the class 1 of which is the instructor.

they are funny and make the lesson fun.

well, my first lesson there and i feel quite comfortable.

tat seldom happens to me.

SFDF

deciding whether to pick it up.

i'm sure i'm gonna take it.

but $$ wise and timing.

how i wish i'm rich and have all the time in the world.

i wan to work study and dance.

i'm going to work hard for them.

EXAMS!!

well i'm alr done with my exams.

paper 1 84%

paper 2 72%

quite satisfied.

as i didn't mug as i'm supposed to.

i wish i can finish up fake boyfriend soon

and start on another book. :)

miss u Dom Dom.

take care.

2010-05-24T01:45:00.001+08:00

PAPER 2 EXAM TMR.

BLESS ME!!

LET ME PASS AT LEAST.

WILL BE BACK TO WORK ON TUESDAY!

LOOKING FORWARD

WONDER HOW IS IT LIKE NOW.

2010-05-20T00:58:00.002+08:00

registered for ballet

monday 4:15

reaching my perfect life alr.

stretching the hours and add in more $$ and dom

:D:D:D

gotta do my exam kit.

i cant fail my exams.

2010-05-17T14:57:00.003+08:00

last lesson of ballet today.

should i find a new school?

should i continue ballet, or learn other dance?

intend to take up musical instrument.

well. i'm too free anyway.

decided to retake 'O' next year.

retaking english and science.

should i retake maths as well?

AND!!

why must everything involve $$

HATES!!!

after exams i will go back and work.

meanwhile i just have to sort my schedule out.

before telling mimi. :)

2010-05-13T00:47:00.001+08:00

by wat i interpreted, i cant accept the fact.

i feel sad for ur.

at the same time ur make me afraid of wat i'm kind of confident in.

hopefully its just not wat i think.

2010-05-12T01:24:00.002+08:00

i dunno wat i've done with my lappy but there's this pop up staying there for half an hr alr.

showing ' enter your message here'

-.-

and no sound for the msn thingy if someone talk to me.

irritating. having to look our for the orange blinking light.

went plaza singapura with my mum and sis.

went to check for flute.

feel like taking up.

but still considering between flute and piano.

going for trial lesson on sat.

definitely i will still continue ballet.

well i'm too free.

i've checked my timetable for next 2 paper.

its crappy.

tue and thur only.

3 hrs lesson per week.

-.-

free like hell.

so i'm going to work and spend my time learning other talent. :D

Paula ubin again!!

genting.

hopefully if my residual income is enough after paying for phone bill ballet and food for the whole month.

gonna loan $ from my sis for flute/piano.

excited!!

2010-05-01T02:40:00.001+08:00

pay out!

hopefully i wont over spend this time.

but i doubt so with the help of gmarket. :/

gotta rest and go for cycling tmr with family at ubin. :D

2010-04-29T23:13:00.002+08:00

wat have u done to make me feel tat u treasure me as a friend.

u didnt put in the effort.

technical problem isnt wat i expect.

and u just have to tell the world abt it.

i dun see y u can say all tat to make ppl feel like u're the only victim.

wtf.

ftw